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As soon as I got pregnant with Judah I knew that I would try nursing again. I was ready! I got a breast pump, nursing cover and nursing pads for my shower. The excitement of walking out my healing was high.
Judah was born and I nursed him in the hospital and none of the fears or flashbacks were there. I was praising God! Then I gave him a bottle, which in retrospect was a mistake. I also decided that while on the painkillers I would pump and he could have a bottle, another mistake. My milk, even with pumping, never caught up to Judah’s demand. I am not discouraged because I know that I could have and would have nursed him. It still makes me a little sad, but I did learn a lot in the process. So, I praise God for His healing!