Saturday, July 19, 2008


Two weeks ago I was so overwhelmed with everything going on I contemplated minimizing my Christianity to a more manageable pace. Gasp!

The battle that ensued in in my Spirit was agonizing. I have experienced, so much of God in the past several years that it is almost overwhelming at times, but the valleys have been as overwhelming. With the hot summer at its peak and nothing to do with three little ones under six, running a business, planning for another homeschool year, seeking the Lord about our church home and struggling in my marriage (again) - I was just wore out. Tired, lonely, sad and a host of other emotions I just wanted to check out of this “full steam ahead for you God” thing. It did not feel right, it did not sound right and I knew it was not right, but I felt out of options.

We walked into church last Sunday to Come Thou Fount and the lines they were singing were:

Prone to wander, Lord I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love

Is that me? Why yes it is! The next lines are what gave me hope:

Here's my heart, O take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above

So, I submitted to Him again! I had to put down my self-pity carry-on and all the other luggage I was carrying around and trust. It comes back to that again. Trust Him with it. Give it to Him, every five seconds if I have to.

The neatest thing about all this is in my bible study (Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World) this week I read (pp 102-103):

I’ve found I need solitude, a daily quiet time alone with God, if I am to have any hope of keeping my center. Left to my own devices, I am fickle and ever-changing. One day I’m hot: “O Lord, I love you! Be gloried in me.” The next day I’m lukewarm: “Sorry, God, have to run.” I have found the words of the hymnist so true:

Prone to wander, Lord I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love

The only way I've found to fight this wandering tendency in my life is to keep my heart centered on Christ, to keep my gaze fixed on Him. But that takes time and an act of my will. I have to be willing to make room in my life if I want to experience the Better Part.

It turns out I’m not alone!

No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Joshua 1:5

Enjoy David Crowder singing Come Thou Fount

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Amy Wyatt said...

I love this song. And I love that book. Have you read Having a Mary Spirit? Those two books by Joanna Weaver are two of my absolute favorites because I can so identify. I'm such a Martha. I totally can relate to this post. Glad you posted this and joined in this week.

Monday through Sunday said...

Many blessings to you! I enjoyed my visit to your blog!

AtlantaMama said...

awesome... and I do love that song too! (I did my Blog Purpose, even though it was late!)

Morning By Morning said...

Hey Girl! I just gave you an award on my blog!

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