An excerpt from a letter I wrote when Kaira, baby 3, was two months old:
While still in the hospital I began to realize that something else had taken place in me, my hope and joy as a mother had been restored. (Actually it was not restored because it had never been there, this was COMPLETELY NEW) I felt something for this baby I had been unable to feel for my other two and my words cannot do justice to what took place in my heart and spirit. A deep inner belief rose up in me that was unshakeable - Christ (my Hope) will provide all that I need to be everything He intends me to be for all my children. Not only did I have a wonderful time with Kaira, I was a different mother to Isabella and Annais.
Finding this today was such a blessing. What a great reminder of the Lord's faithfulness and love and His desire to heal our hearts. I look forward to all I will learn from Judah and how that will affect the rest of us.