A wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter and business owner. It is easy to say those things, they are my roles, but what is not so easy are things like “I am fearfully and wonderfully made” and “I am His workmanship created in Christ Jesus unto good works”. Ultimately, I am in the wrong because that is what God says about me, so I am disagreeing with Him. I have a problem with that! It is not something I want to do, but something I continue to do. The enemy comes at me with his lies about me and I am so quick to agree with him and disagree with my loving Heavenly Father. Why? I am not 100% sure, but it has to do with what I believe about myself. The enemy knows enough about me through my behaviors and attitudes that he ultimately knows what I think of myself and he is quick to reinforce it through thoughts, people and circumstances. He will use anything to confirm what I already believe about myself which is not true in the first place. It is a lose lose situation until I begin to agree with God.
Today this all broke my heart. It saddened me deeply to sing about “Jesus paid it all, all to Him I owe” and feel so terrible about myself. There was a moment I thought why would He do that if what I believe about myself is true? I know what the bible says about me, but there has not been a mind heart connection. I confess the word and believe I am being transformed, but I have not seen the evidence yet, so it has to be a faith thing right now.
Jesus said in Matthew 22:37-40, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all soul, and with all you mind and your neighbor as yourself. This is the great and foremost commandment. And a second is like it, You shall love your neighbor as yourself. On these two commandments depend the whole Law and the Prophets." So, if I cannot love myself and believe what God says about me how well will I love others? Probably not too well.
The enemy would love for me to believe that I am source of the horrible things I think about myself and sometimes he gets me there too, but I know that he is the author of the lies that disagree with what my Daddy says about me.
In reality it does not matter who I say I am because God the Father says:
I am His child ~ John 1:12
I am a friend of Jesus Christ ~ John 15:15
I am united with Him, and I am one with Him in spirit ~ 1 Corin. 6:17
I have been bought with a price, and I belong to Him ~ 1 Corin. 6:19-20
I am complete in Christ ~ Colossians 2:9-10
I am free from condemnation ~ Romans 8:1-2
I am a citizen of Heaven ~ Philippians 3:20
I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit ~ John 15:16
I am a minister of reconciliation for God ~ 2 Corin.5:17-21
I am seated with Jesus Christ in the heavenly realm ~ Ephesians 2:6
I am His workmanship ~ Ephesians 2:10
In Psalms 139:13, it says "For Thou didst form my inward parts, Thou didst weave me in my mother¹s womb. I will give thanks to Thee for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; wonderful are Thy works, and my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from Thee, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth. Thine eyes have seen my unformed substance; and in Thy Book they were all written, the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there was not one of them. How precious also are Thy thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand. When I awake, I am still with Thee."
What do you believe about yourself? Is it what the bible says that God says about you? If not, you are believing some lies too.
I pray for all of us who have not made the mind heart connection that by faith we begin to truly see ourselves as the Father sees us and allow it transform every ounce of our being. Father, I pray you hear the cry of every heart reading this that longs to believe YOU and agree with YOU. Change us Lord, transform us! Use us - may we bear much fruit for YOU!