It’s 6:30 a.m. and there is crying and screaming in my house – not a good way to wake up if you ask me. Yet, this is how most mornings begin lately. The baby is crying because she is ready to get up and the three year old is screaming, “the sun is up” in great faith because there is not a hint of sunlight peeking through his closed shutters. Inevitably the five year old wakes up with all the noise.
Our day begins fast and furious. They wake up hungry, so I begin passing out vitamins, drinks and food. Then it is off to the bedrooms to dress the two little ones and make sure the oldest dresses herself instead of playing. Every morning I put on three shirts, three pairs of pants, three pairs of socks, three pairs of shoes, brush three sets of teeth and brush three heads of hair. So, if you ever wonder why I look the way I do it is because I’m last to get all of these services and by the time it is my turn I’m too tired to care. Some days the process is grueling - that was yesterday.
The Lord stopped me for a moment of reflection standing at the fridge. I was whining and complaining in my head and He reminded me that this is my “job”. This is the place to which He has called me – this is my purpose. Well, that changes everything!
Some people get up, take showers (in silence), drink coffee and drive (alone) to work. They work their 9-5 in the place that God has called them for this season to accomplish His purposes. Yesterday He showed me that just because most days I don’t get a shower, don’t do anything alone, am lucky to remember to get a drink of water and am on call 24 hours a day does not make this any less my place to which He has called me for this season to accomplish His purposes. My attitude has not caught up to my revelation, but it is revelation nonetheless and that is a gift from God.
As I read Christ the Healer the other day, Isabella asked me to read some to her. After I read she said she did not understand, so I rephrased it. Then she said, “I’m going to make up a verse.” The Holy Spirit was so present I knew it was going to be good, so I braced myself and this is what came out of her mouth:
“Satan listens to the Word of God but he disobeys it. He who lies disobeys the Word of God, but he who listens to the Word of God runs from the liar to the One that has the Holy Fire.”
That was better than the best job evaluation, the bonus check and the awesome raise. My job has benefits although I do not see them everyday or even know what they are sometimes. Being here with these children is a gift from the Father, so I do not miss moments like that. That is the best compensation I could ask for.
Give her the product of her hands, And let her works praise her in the gates. Proverbs 31:31